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I'll figure something out once I get through this.

[He'll learn dunamis or something. He doesn't know. He's just scared and doesn't want to hurt anyone while he's like this.

Why do emotions have to be so complicated and explosive?]

I don't know...

[Sora feels frustrated again, the feelings flickering over the connection like static electricity.

He's heard Roxas say these things before when Elize went home. It feels like Roxas is going in circles over and over and he's still not wanting to ask anyone for proper help. Sora doesn't know what else he can do.]

I just want to help you.

Edited 2017-10-09 15:48 (UTC)

[He's existed for three years longer than he should have. He feels he should have answers by now, and he has ideas of how to fix it. He just need to work up the courage to ask someone to teach him dunamis. And he doesn't know who he can reach out to with stuff like this, who can share the burden. Because the people he would ask are gone.

And while it's probably counter-intuitive, he doesn't like showing weakness in front of Sora.]

Why?

Because I'm still here with you. I'm your friend.

[What that means to Roxas, he's not sure. But to Sora that so much is clear. He wants to help Roxas, they've been through a lot together in the last year and a half and even if Roxas still hasn't opened up to Sora...]

You're stuck with me, and I know you don't like that, but I just want to see you happy instead of lost like this.

[There's a concentrated silence as Roxas attempts to sort out his words, wanting to make sure that the ones he says are the right ones. It's not that he's especially bad with words, but that the gets tongue tied and that can lead to the wrong idea getting across.]

I...it's not that. I don't don't mind being stuck with you.

It, it's just...I...it's just I don't know if you realize how intimidating you can be.

[Intimidating? That's a new word for Sora to be called... He feels puzzled.]

What- Do you mean?

[How does he even explain?]

You're really...bright. And just...it's easy to get along with you. Like super easy.

it's kind of scary in a way.

[For Roxas, anyway.]

[Sorry- He has to snort just a little with some confused nervous laughter.]

Ah- Come on, Roxas... How is that scary? Is that a bad thing?

It's not...it's just.

I don't know how to match it.

[Roxas is intimidated by Sora's brightness because he can't match it...?]

Roxas, you don't need to match it. You're you and I'm me, we're different people.

[As much as things would say otherwise, Roxas having come from a part of Sora's heart... He truthfully believes they're different people. He said it so much to Roxas during his Mastery Exams.]

[It's unfortunate that Roxas is not from that canon point. He's always anted to believe that when Sora says it, but there's always been something of a block. That niggling sense that he can't let go of. That voice that doesn't let him forget that he's Sora's nobody.]

It's easy for you to say that.

Because it's true, dummy.

[He huffs softly. He's really not sure how else to make Roxas feel better about it, though. Besides continuing to try and be his friend and not someone Roxas has to compare himself to.]

You're not getting it.

It's easy for you to say that because you get to be a person, Sora! I get to be one here, but, if I suddenly went back...I'd go back to being you. And even though you say you want me to be my own person, who's to say that's even possible. And if it is, what happens to you? There's a bigger picture here!

as much as I hate it

It doesn't matter what happens to me, if we go back you might have come back to my heart for a little while but that doesn't mean I'm gonna stop trying to figure out how to make you you're own person!

I'm gonna find a way, and I'm not gonna give up, why can't you trust me about that?

[He's not ever going to give up.]

It should matter! You're supposed to be the hero!

Or do you not care about the fact that Xion literally chose to go back to you!?

[It's probably an unfair question. Because even though Namine has told him about Xion, those memories have not come back to him. And it's not like Sora knew her. But he's a little past the point of being rational right now, like a snowball gathering speed down a hill. The weight of knowing about Xion combined with Axel leaving and buried resentments are all starting to come to the surface.]

[He'd been about to argue that him being a hero doesn't make Roxas any less important but ...

Xion.

That name- He doesn't know it. But somehow his heart starts aching.]

What are you talking about, Roxas...?

[There a moment of frustrated static as Roxas tries to find his words, but between them and the emotions it's all starting to pile up, each demanding to be felt or said first. How does he even begin to explain something he doesn't even fully understand?]

There was a girl named Xion...and she held part of your memories to. And the only way you were going to wake up was if she went back to you, but that meant everyone would forget about her.

She was my friend and I forgot all about her. Namine told me.

[He's still angry, but there's sadness mixed in now to.

And the vague sense that he wants to say more, but instead the transmission just ends because he'll just end up regretting it if he continues. At least he knows that much about himself now.]

[The transmissions ends before Sora can reply. He leaves Sora feeling confused and somewhat distraught because he doesn't know how to fix this or to make things make sense.

Xion. Part of his memories. Naminé told Roxas.

What is missing from Sora's memories now...? Is this the last piece that keeps Roxas at such a distance?

For the first time ever Sora wonders if it's a bad idea that he lives at Roxas' house. But he'll figure this out ... Somehow.]

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