Day 31 Part 2. [Audio/Action]

[seasaltkeys]

It's been a year.

Comments

video.

[seasalttwilight.livejournal.com]

That's right. I think it's even better than okay. I think it's great.

video.

[retrusting.livejournal.com]

Because... Roxas doesn't want to go back...?

video.

[seasalttwilight.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I don't want to go back home.

video.

[retrusting.livejournal.com]

Because home... is a scary place?

video.

[seasalttwilight.livejournal.com]

It's not really - actually it kind of is, and it's just somewhere I don't want to be.

[He's scared of what will happen to him if he ever goes back to Sora.]

video.

[retrusting.livejournal.com]

If Roxas doesn't want to go... then I want Roxas to stay, too...

video.

[seasalttwilight.livejournal.com]

Thanks Nai.

What about you? What do you want to do?

[Feels weird, asking that. He doesn't usually inquire about other people.]

video.

[retrusting.livejournal.com]

I... I want to... [a pause. and just. .... he honestly doesn't know.

deflating] I don't know...

I want to go back and see Gareki and Yogi, but I have friends here who can't go home with me... because they have different homes...

video.

[seasalttwilight.livejournal.com]

If you had the chance, would you go back?

video.

[retrusting.livejournal.com]

Yes... [a pause.] Um...

Is that... okay...?

video.

[seasalttwilight.livejournal.com]

Well yeah. It's your life isn't it?

video.

[retrusting.livejournal.com]

'My life'...? What... does that mean...?

video.

[seasalttwilight.livejournal.com]

[There's a pause. Oh Nai, Roxas is going to have so much to teach you.]

You know, your life, what you're living right now.

video.

[retrusting.livejournal.com]

Is it... what I'm doing right now...? [/just. doesn't get it. sadly.]

video.

[seasalttwilight.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it is. It's what you're doing right now, it's what's you've done, it's what you're going to do, and you have control over all of it.

video.

[retrusting.livejournal.com]

But... control is bad... right? Control is cages... and lots of angry people...

video.

[seasalttwilight.livejournal.com]

That kind of control is. But there's different kinds of control. The kind of control you have over your life is good, because it's your decision.

video.

[retrusting.livejournal.com]

I don't... get it. Is that... what Roxas does...?

video.

[seasalttwilight.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it's what I do. My life is mine, so I'm going to do what I want, and not let others decide for me.

video.

[retrusting.livejournal.com]

Does it... make Roxas... happy...?

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[seasalttwilight.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it does.

video.

[retrusting.livejournal.com]

I guess... then it's not too bad...!

video.

[seasalttwilight.livejournal.com]

Trust me. It isn't bad.

video.

[retrusting.livejournal.com]

I... I trust Roxas...! [staunchly]

So if I want to control... what do I... do...?

video.

[seasalttwilight.livejournal.com]

You just decide you want something, and then you do it. So, you can say you want to get ice cream, and then go get ice cream.